Feeling down.

So. I don't know if I'm just nervous about the maths test I have tomorrow but, I feel like shit. ( sorry for saying the S word) I'm writing  this here because I feel like I can let it all out and not have someone telling me the whole time "I now,yes , mhmm, yeah, I'm always gonna be here for you". I can never seem to make myself happy. I also feel suck in different group of friends. I'm not the kind of girl that only hangs around with one group of friends. And I can't stand it when people think I'm in just there group of friends. I will hang around with any human-being I want to. I also seem to feel bad every time I tell someone no I'm meeting someone els today. I don't know why I feel bad, but I do.  I tried do make everyone happy but it went down really badly. I learned that no matter how hard you try, you will never ever be able to make everyone happy. Also no matter how much you talk about a person behind there back or even tell then what you think of them, they will never change unless they want to themselves. Yes, I'm a cutter, but does that mean that I'm different? Most of my friends didn't even notice until I told them. I'm a weak ass human, and it seems like cutting makes me feel better for a second. That one second of joy, that one second means a lot. I may laugh at school or with people , but does that mean I'm happy? I listen to everyones problem, I would even go to their place at 5 o'clock in the morning even if my mother would say no. But would they do the same? Thats the question I ask my self a lot. I don't even know with whom I should be friends with. Lately a lot of people have started to show their real faces and they aren't pretty. I feel like I'm better friends with lies than people. I have to say though I might be a girl that is not touchy but I still want someone to love me. Not just fuck and thats it. I want someone to love me like I loved my first ever real crush. I wan't love with the good and the bad times. I want to visit japan. But the money we have now isn't enough. I want to have peace in my life. I want to be intelligent. Last but not least I want to feel beautiful in my own bare skin.
I don't even know what this blog post is about, I just wanted to write about what I'm feeling and then my fingers just started to type.

Penny Skateboard learning process

Penny Skateboard

Hola :)

The weather is getting warmer and for some reason this made me want to learn how to skateboard.

I'm not very keen on the normal skateboards but the penny skateboards look so nice.

The one that is on the picture is a 22inch organic penny, that a school friend let me ride on.

I have never in my whole life tried to skate before but I noticed that it's soo easy to learn. The tricks are hard but just learning how to cruise around is not much of a task. 

Of course i feel of the skateboard. I fell of exactly a week ago and my bum and back still hurt like crazy. I have a video of me falling of the penny. Just in my luck my friend was filming me while I fell.

I'm not as good as the boys not even close but I can cruise a little. I just staked for one day so yeaaah. 

I wanted to upload the video but for some reason it's not working :( I'm so sorry

But I am planning on buying a glow in the dark penny with black wheels or a red marble penny. Unless the pastel penny colours come out *-* !

The reason why I want to learn how to skate board is because I really need a hobby. I'm an only child and it does get really lonely sometimes and my mother is at work all the time so I thought instead of sitting  in fort of the TV all day I could do something.

I hope I will soon be able to skate with out falling on my bum. 

My goal is to skate board around the lake with my friends.

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My belly button piercing

Heyy everyone :)

So I obviously  got my belly button pierced if i ordered piercing online.

Well I got it pierced on the 11th of May for my  16th birthday present from my Father. I don't see him much so thats probably why he let me get one. I got it done at a piercing shop in Zürich called 2ndSkin.

I had to go with a parent of course because I'm only 16.

If I'm going to be honest I have to say that the pain level from 1-10 was probably a 8.  It was a fast pain so that was okay. The only painful part was the needle going through my skin and when he took the needle out. 

Cleaning:

I clean my piercing about 3-5 times a day with the shot glass method. Basically I mix a pinch of salt with warm water in a shot glass and then I lay on my back and I leave the shot glass on till the water gets cold. Its normal if white puss comes out but only white. Luckily I don't have that. Not yet at least. 

I really like my piercing so far and its still not perfect yet because it takes up to 6 months :)

up close.

byeeee xoxo

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Esty Review!

Hello Everyone :-)

Welcome to my first Blog post. First i will apologise for this picture. I know it's not the best.

I ordered theses two belly button piercings on the 14th of May and they came yesterday on the 24th of May. Exactly 10 days. I also got 2 free ones which surprised me quite a lot. I will post a picture of them at the end. Since I live in Switzerland and the seller is from the US the time it took to arrive was extremely fast in my opinion. They came in a cute little chinese take away box wrapped in paper. I thought the packaging was absolutely adorable. The piercings were in good condition. Nothing was broken.  The sellers name is Azeetadesigns i truly recommend checking her goods out. I also ordered from another user but I haven't gotten a massage from the seller yet.

These two are the free ones I got from the seller.

The seller : http://www.etsy.com/shop/Azeetadesigns?ref=usr_faveitems&atr_uid=33430716

( sorry about my cake crumb on the side )

Anyway I hope you liked this post.

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